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Mar. 17th, 2006 | 11:37 pm

so yea well i dont kno wats wrong with me i jus have this realli weird feelin that i wish would so away. i feel so hurt and sad, and alone. i dont kno i miss Tyler, i mean i kno he's not pur-fect by ne means but he's still the person that cared a/b its jus too bad he never realli cared a/b me the same way. like it was to hard to love me or sum thing. but sum times i realli wonder if it isnt. i dont kno i kno i can be near impossible to connect to which i wish wasnt true but it is. thats jus who i am. so yea i guess thats it.

Crazie Girl in a Fucked Up world

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Mar. 17th, 2006 | 10:32 pm

yea its wat ever you wanna call it!!!

mi best friend
the only one a gurl can trust
so pretti
so sharp
so cold to the touch
yet again something is warm about it's touch
the way it calms me
the way i kno its always be there
when im sad
or happy
or just mad
the way its always there
to listen
to take away the pain
so pretti
so sharp
jus waitin to end the the pain you feel
to make things better
truning the cold i felt to the warmth i feel
only friend i could ever trust

~Alyson~

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just wat ever

Mar. 17th, 2006 | 10:00 pm
mood: content content
music: girl next door by saving jane

yea well i dont kno wat you would call it. well realli its jus mi thoughts that i have been left alone with for too long.


a broke lil girl is all they see
nothing more nothing less
they dont see the girl she was
just what she is

they dont see the broke dreams
or heart for that matter

all they see is her broken body
the pool of blood in which she lies
so cold so dead

the broken girl with out a name
without a furter or a past
just the life in which she took

her own life for it was to hard to live
for her broken soul could no long hold on
to her broken dreams of this world

~Alyson~

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hi hi hi

Mar. 17th, 2006 | 07:31 pm
mood: confused confused
music: "girl next door" saving jane

hey ppl so yea wow i never thought i would sit here thinkin this. its realli weird i dont kno i had thought that i was over cryin over him. well it doesnt seem like it. like 15 min. ago i jus started cryin for no reason other than i missed him. god im realli sad i pray he never reads this but at the same time i kinda want him to see it, jus so he would kno wat he had done to me. what i had to feel becuz of him. the pain that he caused that he told me he wouldnt. wat can i say i learned that bois are stupid and only think with their pants and that gurls are stupid becuz we believe the shit they tell us. i dont kno which is worst bein bein hurt and not sayin ne thing or sayin that ur realli hurt. its right up there to be or not to be.

Luv

crazie gurl in a fucked up world

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this is pretty

Mar. 16th, 2006 | 10:11 pm

HASH(0x91762a0)
"The only thing standing between me and total

happiness is reality." you're a dreamer

and you have the perfect world created inside

your mind. you're always wishing that things

were better and you try to escape realtiy as

much as possiable.


what quote best fits your personality?????
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heya

Mar. 16th, 2006 | 09:24 pm
mood: melancholy melancholy

hey ppl i had better days but today isnt all that bad. yea i got dumped and it hurt but i learned a well needed lesson too. i learned that not only can you not change ur self to be loved but not bein loved changes you in a different way. that when you care a/b sum one and they "use you" it hurts but it makes you stop and think a/b wat ur doin with ur life if its realli wat you want. and well today i saw that i was happier bein a quiet lil gurl with Drew than i was bein wild with Tyler. so who knos maybe the gurl i thought i was i not realli. maybe i am that quiet lil gurl. i wont say i dont love to play around. but i think maybe i always took it to far. that the real me the one that i didnt want ne one to see was that i was scared that i was worried that if i didnt let them take it "too far" they wouldnt be there well guess wat either way they're not there. so yea jus a thought

love

a crazie gurl in a fucked up world

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Mar. 16th, 2006 | 04:40 pm

hey well i went to school today and that sucked like big time and yea well ok so yea all of mi friends are all like why are you dating him(as in Tyler) but thats ok becuz he jus called and dumped me!!1

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well...

Mar. 15th, 2006 | 07:53 am
mood: content content
music: size matters

~*~Result nr 1~*~


Your power is: Clairvoyance


Explanation: Your power is that you can

look into the future and see what is coming.

How far and long you can look is all

depending on your skill level. This can, as

all powers, be used in both evil and good.

Even if it may seem like a boring ability it

is a huge responsibility for the carrier,

becase they are constantly tempted with doing

the wrongs deeds (e.g. cheat on a test). It

takes high morals to not be brought down with

it.

Therefor you fit with this power quite well.

You take responsibility and do what is the

right thing to do. This does not make you a

saint, since you're only human after all. But

it makes a trustworthy person and you are

loyal to camrades and/or team mates. In

school you were probably a good student. If

you were social varies from person to person,

but most clairvoyant people tend to prefer

their own company or that of close friends

and family. That is because you are wise and

knows how to treasure the reliable in your

life, since you know popularity can be a

false element. You are also not that big on

taking risks and prefer what is already

explored. That is because you don't like

suprises, they can turn out bad and then you

won't be in control.
Negative aspects: Since you're always

doing the right thing and being trustworthy

all the time you can become frustrated. Also,

all that you carry on your shoulders may

stress you out. You need to relax to be in

good mental shape.




What Power is Compatible With You? [beautiful anime pictures + 12 detailed results]
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mi word is hate who would ever kno

Mar. 15th, 2006 | 07:41 am
mood: creative creative
music: Kerosene

Hate
Your word is: Hate. Your heart has been turned to

black since you haven't experienced love, or

maybe you felt love but got none in return.

So if no one else is willing to like you,

then why like them? You are now a very bitter

soul, trying to find a place and perhaps

someone who can co-exist with you. That can

be a problem since you tend to keep away from

most people and be rude, but maybe someday

you will be okay again.


What Dark Word Represents You? [anime pics]
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hey you ppl

Mar. 15th, 2006 | 07:32 am
mood: content content
music: "Go Home"- Steve Holy

hey so yea i am realli bored i have to stay home becuz well i still have hives. which sucks becuz i wanna see mi boi friend like realli bad, lol i kno im a loser. so yea i'v been talkin to mi ex boi friend Darren more since the loser got a myspace, it only took him a/b year. lol i kno its realli sad that ne one would wait that long. but the truth is i still like Live Journal for blogging i dont kno why i jus do. its jus more like home for me. so yea i guess thats a/b it so show me sum love and comment.

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